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So, im going through some awful things right now. It probably wont affect my blogging but whatever. So my aunt died on Sunday the day AFTER my least favorite holiday VALENTINES DAY. And suddenly my world has been turned on its head. I am now in a position of power that I never asked for and I suddenly have to take care of my like 28 year old paraplegic cousin and my elderly grandfather and my uncle who has neuropathy of the legs.
These people took care of ME when i was little and now all of a sudden I’m 20 years old and having to take care of other people and a house and pay bills and car insurance and oh god im so stressed out. I mean my uncle can still get around and he cooks dinner for us and like takes care of grandpa most of the time as well as himself but its just, Now without my aunt the household isn’t running as smoothly as it was.
Now I have become the woman of the house. I’m the one that has to keep it clean and take care of everybody and do things. Luckily I’ve just gotten another job. Now with 2 jobs ill be making more money and ill actually make enough to pay my bills and have spending money. I have also made up and am now friends with My ex boyfriend again. But it doesnt change the fact that im now a head in this household. Basically my aunt was the queen, I ‘m just a princess. The queen died and now im queen, I AM NOT READY TO BE QUEEN. I HAVE BEEN THRUST INTO A POSITION OF POWER I DO NOT WANT AND I AM SCARED.
I have to be strong for an entire household. I have to be strong for myself. Im terrified, im not ready for this. But i have to be ready, i cant not be ready. I am the only able bodied person in my house so i have to take up most of the responsibilities and im fuckin scared. I cant rely heavily on my uncle or grandpa or cousin. I already rely heavily on my grandpa to keep a roof over my head and my uncle to cook our meals because i dont know how to cook and for my cousin to be my best friend and be there for me when i need her. But now I have to learn to cook, which i should but i didnt want to learn like this. I now have to pull more than my share around here, when before i pulled less than my share. And now i have to take care of a woman who used to change my diapers for crying out loud.
I was shoved into the harsh reality of this world when my parents died and left me an orphan, i relied on my grandparents, then my grandma died, now i rely on my uncle and aunt, now my aunts dead. Now im the head and Im really an adult. An adult with two jobs, and responsibilities that someone my age shouldn’t have to have. I am openly admitting I AM NOT OKAY AND I AM HORRIFIED! I keep saying Im okay and that yeah im really fine but I am not. I am scared and i need help. Im scared, i feel alone I need advice and support and a hug. I dont know what to do now. I really hope i can be a good adult and take care of my family. I really hope i can cope and be the adult that my family needs.
If any of you have any advice on what i can do. Please help me out, I really need it.
My name is Kit I am a resident of the land of Ooo I am Captian of the Fox pirates.|
Name: Kit O'Hara
Height: 5ft 2in
Sexuial oreintation: straight.
Relationship status: Taken. Happily in love with Hirohitsuya.
A fox pirate is wha' I am. I 'ave controll over all species of foxes as well as the ability to turn into a fox to escape from terrible situations.
Background story: Kits fater was the son of a sailor and a sailor himself. He loved his daughter more then the world itself. She had to live with her father from the day she was born because her mother had died while giving birth to her.Kit grew up on a ship in Ooo with her father and she told him that she would one day be a pirate. Her father laughed and said that being a lady pirate was not the job for his beautiful daughter. But kit was determined to follow her dream, so she started to learn everything she could about keeping up a ship and crew and learned how to fight with knives and swords. When she was eight years old her father reveled to her she had the power to transform into a fox and had the power to controll foxes. It was a power passed down for generations in her family. She loved having this power but the thing she loved the most was the Island that her father owned. That was where she was born and where she spent her time when she wasnt at see with her dad. Kit and her father spent months on the island setting boobytraps and importing goods and hiding treasure. She loved that island and knew it like the back of her hand. It was the one place in the world she knew she would always be safe. For kit and her father were the only ones who knew how to avoid the traps to get onto the island safely. other ships and people who tried were either shipwrecked killed or sent back to shore.but rest assured they had no ship afterwards. Kits father said that everything he owned would be passed down to her when the time came. Well the time came... Kit was just ten years old when her father died, She was thirteen when she took her fathers ship and crew and became a pirate. She now rules the water with an iron paw and makes sure that everyone she is close to and cares about is safe and well taken care of. She is now eighteen. Though she loves her crew like a family she is a rather lonely girl who wnats nothing more then to have friends to hang out with and a boyfriend to adore love and protect her. So dont fear this girl strike up a conversation and enjoy the tales to come!